thank you

Posted on Fri 10 Aug 07

……..to everyone who responded so openheartedly to my wee blog.
i am aware i run the risk of coming over as a pompous windbag but it’s a risk i’m prepared to take (so say all pompous windbags i’m sure!).
reading your comments made me think again about the curious relationship that is the music maker/music consumer…or artist/fan…or whatever we call it.
personally i’m only comfortable with the former.those of you i’ve corresponded with directly it’s been because in some way i picked up on the fact that you related to me first as a human being.i take that to mean i am only one of many different things you are interested in in your life.it’s important but it’s NO BIG DEAL (and i may absolutley abhor your other choices,it really is our call no?)!
this is cool
“fans” usually distress me.there’s little healthy about any obsession but i have had enough of the stalking type behaviour and its’ congruent actions to have me want to stay well away.
this means i really do not like things like signings.star behaviour in one form or another.where is the reason for it?
where is the music,the poetry?
me?i’m almost on my knees when i hear something THAT good,when i’m in the concert hall and the MOST beautiful surprise is visited me by the artist!it is why i do what i do;i aspire to the same thing…a sharing.
which is why i insist on the presence of joy (pompous terminology….don’t know how to say it).a tour becomes,after a certain point,something intended to achieve something ie sell records.
and the cart is suddenly before the horse!
reading your responses made me realise how lonely i had become.i don’t get the chance to play live as much as i’d like to (maybe i’ll start podcasting some of the extraordinary sessions we have in our family kitchen here in west cork!) so we don’t meet;you and i.
i hope to do something about this.
when you tell me how much you love my music it doesn’t inflate my ego or anything else,it HUMBLES me.
i think i understand because i am the same way.sometimes we just need to communicate something…a thank you,a well done,a keep on keeping on….whatever.sometimes i have even embarrassed myself trying to say thanks to someone who created something that meant so much to me (typical of me to overcomplicate something so simple).
know what?i don’t feel so lonely anymore
whether there’s 100 of you out there or 111,000 it doesn’t matter.
i didn’t really get the myspace thing;don’t have enough time to keep in touch with my proper friends so what is THIS all about?
doesn’t matter
somefriends are actually IN your life
and some visit
a melody carried on the wind
nice one
thanks again
CV